WORD

OH LIFE...it's so big and we get to go thru whole lotta people.Even i got along with lotta people and was in relationship with them.Some called me brother while other called me a good fren.Days passed by and it has already been 21 years that i've been confronting with people. AS a matter of fact, still i couldnt' figure out;" Who the hell are PEOPLE and their WORDS?".
In this journey, i get to see whole lotta people with love and care as well as those people who happened to be envy of me. I aint' so suprised as this world is the mixture of different kind of people with different kinda attitude. Different people passed out the comments and lotta sweet words. The same words, they were so confusing. People did say them to me but i always thought if they mean them words or they were spitting out just like that.
As for me, i do respect the words. I dont' just say the words or say i wont' make the words so cheap. When some words come out of me, i mean it from my heart. What i believe is that word is so powerful and works a lot. But we shouldn't ever forget that the words always have two meanings. IF some mere words can establish a rocking relationship then again the same words can distort the very rocking relationship. All i wanna say is that, wheneva one says something that it should considered several times.
The other thing is that, only giving some words is only the half done. When u give some words then the other step is to fulfill them. Them words are not the true words if they are not fulfilled. If people think they are not capable to fulfill them words, better stay quiet. So, as the words come out from anyone , he/she should be sure that the words are gonna be real. Mere words will be meaningless if someone aint' capable to make it real. People should possess that capacity can turn out every of their words into something real or they better save them words for the best time when they'll be capable. The thing is that, save words instead of letting it go to waste. As we all know that, words means a lot in this world.

BIRTHDAY

When i woke up and saw outside the window, it was a gloomy morning. The hidden blue sky as covered with the cluster of clouds. No bright sun but it was a dim and cool day. The special day of mine i.e. mine "birthday". Unlike before, there were no any plans. I was just missing someone and was lost in the memories. I was happy to surf in the past memories and the other moment i even cried as my lucky star was not with me and has gone forever. Few minutes later, there was a knock at the door. As i opened it, there were my parents to wish me birthday. Again, i got a call from my sister who is there in States. It was so nice talking with her for several minutes. Though lot of calls and wishes were there for me, I could still see the big void. But nothing the differences as I couldn’t' do anything to mend that void.
With wet eyes, the very day started. After finishing the daily chores, i got a call from my friend. I was informed that we got to meet in the field for the left over work as we were making some small documentary about dalit people. As i was getting ready, i heard a bell and my friend was there to pick me up. Finally, we reached to the field with cameras and whole lot of zeal for the very work. Though it has already been two weeks we've been working in that field, still there was whole lotta courage and enthusiasm among us. We were taking some small steps for the development or upliftment of that small deprived group of people i.e DALIT. Especially, I was very happy for that work as I’ve never done any kind of social work. That work, which we were doing, was blend of fun, pain, tears and frustrations. And due to the very work, it made me realize that i have so many privileges and opportunities to do something in my life.
When i first stepped into that locality, it was like stepping in the whole new world. I felt like i've been living a royal life when i compared myself to them people. Same people, who were relying upon the plastics and few wood as their home. The same home which can be crumbled by the strong winds or furious rain. I was like totally shocked when i saw their lives. Their way of living and the diet they were having, it was so painful to see. I felt so helpless for not being able to do anything for them. All i could do was being involved in the making of that documentary in the hope that people get aware of this small group of destitute people. These people were not only cheated by their fate but they were also the victim of government apathy and the laws of the country.
First time in my life, i celebrated my birthday in such a nice way. Though there were not any specific plans, but the birthday celebration was so awesome. I bought a packet of chocolates and I disseminated them among the dalit kids. There were more than happy to get that which were being manifested in their eyes. They wished me a birthday and we sang and danced. We captured them moment in the camera as well. It was such a beautiful experience to be with the underprivileged kids with whole lotta happiness among them. And i was the reason of their happiness; my birthday, chocolates and the camera. Even the small reason brought whole lotta happiness among the kids. They were lost among themselves enjoying the moments by dancing, singing and laughing and forgetting every pain that they were going thru for some moments. At that moment, i wished for their upliftment and happiness forever in their lives. This moment shall always be treasured in my life and shall never be forgotten ever in my life.

NO WAY OUT

no way to express the pain
feelings occupying and peircing the heart, making it heavy
still tolerating the pain
living life through the dark
life full of sadness and pain

no hope to overcome the problems
adapting the situation is the only way out
since there is fear to trust anyone
coz' the dreadful colors of people has already been seen
feeling so aloof, livin' life in hell

living alone in sadness though surrounded by crowd
since there ain't sense of lovingness in anyone
as everyone is so selfish just living for their own sake
noone doesnt' ever care nor intrested to share the pain
just lettin' me burn alone

couldnt' draw anything out of this life
and it seems like burden to live
just livin' for other's sake
with a hope that endin' will come soon
and would be much happy to be free from this world